When assigned what seems an impossible task, the most important pointer to take note is how you are going to execute and complete the task and not think whether you are going to succeed or fail it!! :)

Next week, preparation for 6 days field camp.. suay suay kena this sunday guard duty so suay sia... next weekend another confinement!! SSIann no choice jus hav to suck thumb in NS!!!







Xavier

Emo-ing.. For this entire week my life was totally screwed up. Mood is like a roller coaster, sometimes up and certain times down.....
No choice, in Army u jus hav to suck it up.. This is Army's life.. 2 mths of shit, been through, done that....
When i received a shocking news, this made things worse.. I cried 3 times upon receiving this news coz after 2 mths of PTP phase, i'm going to transfer frm falcon coy to dragon coy due to the shortage of Sgt in my previous platoon....., as a result hav to disband the whole of my platoon..
Freaking miserable, (that's why i cried and in fact 1 packet of tissue is also not sufficient to dry my tears.) :'(
Old memories, environment, culture, training styles, many need to re-adapt again....
After a few days at dragon coy (baby dragon), i realised that falcon is more discipline, more organise, give more clearer instructions but dragon people are more fit and can do alot more chin - up and can run faster....
My upcoming schedule are preparing for field camp, throwing grenade, go for range (rifle) and won't be on9-ing most of my time....
*Will definitely miss all my falcon mates, Staff Sgt Willip (currently CSM ), Sgt Vincent, Sgt Zi yang, Sgt Yi Fan, Ltc Zhan Teng and many other Sgt and Sir frm Falcon Coy... Every1 all the best and let's meet again at POP...








Xavier

able to strip my rifle in 20 plus sec..
able to assemble my rifle in 30 plus sec =)
kinda like arms drill :P








Xavier

this week schedule was so packed.. felt so shagged , not enough rest in camp... the route march was abit tiring coz now we are trying to equip with full battle armour.. walked few km... i was kena guard duty also den was like nvr slp properly and ended up being restless... can't imagine i wore some sort of like ninja turtle suit... hahs!
finally also draw arms tis week... 1st time touch a real rifle... in camp rifle is ur wife and hav to take care of it else u will be charge or confine.. i was so touched during the draw arms ceremony coz we are told to say i will live by the core values and with my rifle, i will protect my country.... most touching part is when the few china and 1 ang mo saying these verse which make me wet my eyes and shed tears...
I hav serve ns for 1 mth 1 wk le... will update again....








Xavier

During the 2 wks confinement period, i learnt tat we are actually not an individual but a platoon, a company. A few "black sheep" will cause the whole platoon to suffer. I also learnt tat we hav to react and move fast and nevertheless we hav to listen to instructions and not defy any orders. Through all the training so far, i realised tat we hav to endure and strive for our best and push to our maximum limits.








Xavier

have i made a serious mistake by letting u know how i feel? haiz shldn't hav let u know in the 1st place. can we go back to the past whereby we had lots of fun plus laughter n we were much closer back then... perhaps it's really impossible now... =(





Xavier

OMG Y so Fast? I cant ly A camp on the actual day le... Going to Report to tekong on the 3rd of June =/ no more gathering/outing for me le ='(









Xavier

Jus graduated frm 13th batch MFB . Time to ly n hav more responsibilities =)









Xavier

Learnt new songs last sat 2nd jcg practice.. Ytd went for 1st meeting for A camp planning... PLAN CAMP WASN'T TAT BAD AFTER ALL !

Ytd aft camp meeting saw yihlin, yihjin, zhih ying , ying jie and ying hui ly-ing ( distributing dinner ) hmmm how come ti de youth are alwaes cherishing all ly opportunities whereas jie de youth are sometimes on and off deee.... shld reflect on ourselves -.-...



Won't be going for next few jcg practices coz all clash with A camp meeting but i'm also ly mah hahas!! Da jia lykl =)







Xavier

Went ktv at china town last wk.. finally met up with FS n SK. really enjoyed ourselves (lazy to elaborate )
jus received a call frm A camp commando.. he told me im officially in the camp planning committee list. got chance to learn n ly thanks lmcb =)






Xavier

Last Sat went for my 1st jcg practice. initially was as usual blur sotong coz i was like an alien there since all of them joined at least a few years le but i jus joined.. but nvm will adapt real soon =) finally saw the twin sis (taffy and agatha) but i still not sure who i alwaes talk to coz they look so alike -.-" well...


ytd, went ecp with portion of poly clique to rollerblade =) i fell down all the times and walao pain all over seh "ouch" =X i enjoyed the process and at that instant i wasn't thinking abt anything like so peaceful lah =)
aft had dinner at an indian vege restaurant obviously i hav to request for no onion garlic -.-.... after our dinner went to tampines ikea walk walk den it's home sweet home....

hope to hav more gathering with fotang clique or sch clique...
tml i will meet up with hui zhong for lunch and chit chat session yippee =)






Xavier

it's been some time since i last blog... anw for the past few days i was playing basketball, swimming, playing wii in np studio 27 =) with my cliquee. alwaes hav fun and lota laughter whenever i'm with him ^.^.... also had a dinner at loving hut at park lane there with my kor and peng sheng my gd fren plus bro also hehes! also hav been looking for a job for the past few days. my moto is to enjoy myself b4 i start working full time and enlisting into ns... jus sent my 1st resume few days ago so hav to wait .... thanks ai hui for the job intro hahas! nth much to blog so i shall stop here..





Xavier

Poly life has come to an end.. Missed all the fun here @ ngee ann... hopefully won't repeat any of the module this sem coz all 4 core modules are damn difficult seh.... will be getting a diploma soon and dunnno if i wan work as an engineer next time... Time really flies when we are having fun can't bear to leave ngee ann lar especially my poly clique and will definitely miss the sch's facilities ='(

Now getting rdy to adapt to the next chapter of my life... Zheng Hao u must be persistant and persevere on =)

Hopefully my frens ard me, especially all my fotang frens and poly clique will be always happy and bless everything will go smoothly for all of them coz i really care for them and love them alot hehes =) so mushy!! Frenss smile ! Way to go =) Take care every1 rmb i will be there for all of u if u ever need me =P






Xavier

Wishing all a belated happy chinese new year and a belated happy valentine's day. For the past 10 days, i have been busy studying for my exams and busy celebrating cny... (watching drama as well =) )

我曾经问过我自己：如果今天是我在这个世间的最后一天，我会怕吗？

我不是怕我没有钱花，
我不是怕考试会不及格，
我不是怕给别人说我丑，
我不是怕给别人说我笨，
我不是怕让人瞧不起，
我不是怕这个怕那个。

而是...........
只是怕这辈子会没有女人爱，
只是怕这辈子不会交到女朋友，
只是怕身边的亲人一个个离我而去，
只是怕孤单寂寞的过一生。

人生为什么这么不公平？
Those who are handsome (hunks) and pretty (babes) tend to be very popular and those ugly people like me will be outcasted and thus felt neglected. Why won't any girls appreciate me at all? Why won't any girls notice me at all? Why won't any girls admire me? Why won't any girls accept me? Why is my fate like this???

I have no other choice but to accept my destiny, my life, my fate, coz this is a reality which i can't change but to accept it.....






Xavier

Had a bad dream last nite.. Imagine what i dreamt of? OMfgosh how could i hav such a dream....
i dreamt tat my ft clique got liao yuan(ly) sure ask me go but when they got gathering and fun tgt they neglected me and worse they dun even invite me lor... den u know wat i did aft tat? i began to throw my tantrum and approach them and shouted y did u all neglect n outcast me when u all were having fun tgt? den i woke up n found out tat it was jus a dream...
How could i hav this dream man wth.... -.-
ytd went for AGM and alot of tong xiu are promoted to xtys n jqs GRATZ n jyjy =)




Xavier

had 1 whole day of lecture until 3pm den it was raining cats and dogs (and still is now...) then watch poker king a hong kong movie with my poly clique... omg the ambient temp is alrdy very low plus the air-con makes it super cold lar like -ve degree .... (abit exaggerating hahas!) tdy is hurbert's 20th birthday and aaron bought a cake n we had a mini celebration and the cake is delicious yummy =) tml is hisyam 21th birthday also.... we had lots of fun there.. chit chat session, gaming session n movie session =) ate the cake until very full now.... =X
tml still got byz n ss's rehearsal so yippee i love to ly ^0^.. gonna exams soon so hahas gonna mugggg soon =X






Xavier

ytd spent $80 plus on clothes (top) and shoes... intended to buy a pair of jean (bottom) but insufficient cash..... i hav set my eye on tat pair of jean le =)

Xavier

suddenly the feelings come back after the sharing on taiwan @ bxb.. tdy bxb we had ice breaker and taiwan's sharing..
Ytd jus submitted the ss application to ss's zz.. so i will still be joining byz for this ly but i kinda lost coz i dunno where to go as in byz or jcg.... well gtg for work soon... tired!








Xavier

说一千遍我爱你也都还不够
只要有你陪着我 再苦我能承受
说一千遍我爱你也都还不够
有一天我总会看见幸福的彩虹
相信你给的承诺
我等候







Xavier

tdy damn unlucky.. almost reach sch den realised tat i 4got to bring my script for tdy's presentation... den no choice went home to take.... haiz tdy like not smooth sia.... god bless..









Xavier

this morning was xie en @ TG pray 8.1k kou shou.. Ly pack rice and chat with many de shu frens =) Lazy to elaborate =X going to work in 10 mins time .... sian




Xavier

Hmmm.... Thinking real hard.......







Xavier

my jig saw puzzle will nvr be complete without "u" Where is the last piece to make the whole puzzle complete? hopefully as time goes by i can find the last piece....








Xavier

Recently, stress lvl to the max... busy with assignments which can't seem to finish keep on accumulating like snowball -.- and sian nid ppl to talk to be it in msn , facebook or sms!!!!
Ytd abit sick le Thanks ppl who bother to care for me even by asking if im feeling abit better, it sure helps abit =) jus recovered abit only but....
Not in the mood to blog much.. tat's all





Xavier

Ytd was jie de big event (YXH)... was very successful and the feedback received were pretty gd..
really hav to gan en lmcb.. all the jdys hav been putting in alot n lot n lot of efforts n time n energy to organise n plan tis major event.. every1 lykl =) i was assign to help lr with the photo slideshow.. really spent alot of time for tat .. but lr spent alot more time n effort as compared to me.. the emcee did a great job (tzong hong,wei cheng) well done bro! =) our skit was also not tat bad, made alot of audience laugh.. the photo slideshow was quite gd coz lr n me put in our hearts to do them =X as for the interview (video) it really touched me and i could feel my tears flowing... aft hearing the parents words and encouragement and bys speech i was moved.. i seldome hav tis kind of feelings de.. we also had dcs n dz speech folo by during lunch we also had songs delication to whoever u wish to delicate to... tat ends the day...


Finally have time to rest aft yxh =)





Xavier

no mood to blog... can't describe my emotions now... Jus watch this trial video... Thanks

Xavier

hey if i treat u as a fren and u wan to make use of me, at least dun let me know lar. u can do watever u like behind my back... I dun give a DAMN sia... my tolerance got its limits de dun pissed me off ... i hate hypocrite so dun behave like a true and sincere fren in front of me if u aren't genuine or else i will detest and despise u de!!
DAMN!!! spoil my mood and ruin my day .....  
Really angry now and keeping everything to myself haizzzzzz






Xavier

Feelings for u have slowly faded off , sometime y do i still think of u? u can take me for granted but i alwaes do my best to let u feel happy, care for u tolerate u but y aren't i getting any chance.... haiz i suddenly dunno wat is fair and wat's not. sumbody jus get it for free without any contribution but i believe i alwaes giv in but nobody will appreciate me... Affinity where have u been to? come on i nid u sumhow -.-
still emo-ing every now n den!!            jyjys for coming yxh..... yawnss tired tired....  





Xavier

Tdy pon sch jus to go for medical check up. met chit hao at 9 at tiong bahru coz i asked him to accompany me =X (thanks bro , u are such a nice person =) ) wasted half a day there at man power there.... Actually took 1 hr plus for the checkup but still hav to take stupid IQ test.... -.- took me like 3 hrsssssss... Now having severe headache "ouch" dun feel like elaborating...

Anw guys and gals i'm in PES B =X  LOL! shall end here......





Xavier

Time really flies! Ytd was mfb last lesson le. yet to learn alot n it's jus ended tat fast.... well its really time to improve on my childish behaviour and hav better attitude towards ppl.. For those whom i had accidentally offended for the past 19 years , pls accept my apology. pls accept me for who i'm and believe me i will change over time de. dunno if i'm rdy for next batch of ren cai ban.... Mixed feelings every now n den... 


But trust me I can control my emotions de =)





Xavier

Busying till now.. but it's all worth it.. coz it's my hse 17 anniversary.. alot of tz men qsn men came to dao xi =)
most importantly got 6 xin qiu so got ban dao is a fa xi thinggy... LMCB. Been helping with the hse hold chores since aftnoon so abit tired seh but every1 lykl so not so bad after all... the happiness cant really be describe so jus hav to gan en for everything... =)


anw now i m going to prepare the photo video for next major event which is on next sun (yxh) so stay focus n concentrate dun slp zheng hao -.-


but sth rest is to go a longer way so anw got ly must go cherish coz u might nvr know wat might happen the next moment...












Xavier

Earth is dying/sick ... Help save the earth by being a VEGETARIAN =)






Xavier

Stress! Roller-coaster will have its up and down.. I'm at my down n0w ='(










Xavier

stress stress stress

Stress lvl to the MAXIMUM!!!! I can't take it anymore... I nid sum1 to talk to me or else i will go crazy... any 1 also can ='(





Xavier

Results for EID better den expected =)

Jus got bac my EID result... i thought i will flunk seh... coz aft the paper i was like omfg how come the paper is so difficult n my mind was blank .... i admit i had not prepared thoroughly for all my ct but... I scored 73 for my EID though it wasn't tat fantastic but i was kinda pleased.. =) hopefully i will get better marks den EID. btw eid is electrical installation design.. will blog next time if i feel like it.. o yeah i hav decided to join sheng shi le hehes! Welcome me to ss big family =)





Xavier

happy new year

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERY 1! Welcome to the world of 2010 not 4get-ing our sweet n memorable year of 2009. Indeed time flies how i wished i can stay stagnant awhile to reflect and improve on my thinking and my actions. well time doesn't wait for any1 so to summarise time is precious and jus do watever we have to now and dun delay else u might lose tat rare opportunity.

AND yeah i bought a new touch screen handphone (samsung) light pink colour so cool =) (28-12-09) jus a few days old hehes!!!

Anw blog till here take cares every1 =)