SAD SAD SAD ='(

Aft wat sum1 told me we aren't close so u won't go out with me.. this has been bothering me these few days... Is this the reason? I really treat u all as frens if u all dun regard me as 1 i might as well jus disappear out of ur life.. Sry for my msg regarding joining of ur clique n saying all those things i shldn't hav said. i was in a foul mood tat day. i shldn't hav doubt u... y shld i bother wat the others had say. perhaps if i really treat u as a fren i will hav mutual trust in u ='( entirely my fault. though i dun wish to sour our friendship but i think it's alrdy too late to salvage it. Let it be den. how i wished to turn back the time but it's impossible. well perhaps if u happened to read tis entry, i oso can't change the fact tat we aren't close frens anymore. very sad yeah.



aft ly ~wedding @ tg~ ft clique =)

Knowing tat u'r busy recently, i dun wan to sms or contact u. It's alrite if u dun wan go out with me i jus wish tat u will be happy daily n get to n0e sum of ur recent stuffs if u dun mind. sumtimes i keep saying i care for u the most but whenever u nid help i can't do anything to help u n i won't be ard for u... hopefully we jus cherish the presence n our friendship..

ytd went amk hub to watch horror movies the most ultimate motive is actually i was trying to meet up with aaron coz i haven't been seeing him for few mths le =X after movies we help peng sheng celebrate his 20th birthday. these are wat we took ytd..

Tat nite yx oso called me n we chatted alot of personal stuffs haha only we know the content Thanks for ur concern yx kor kor =) after tat is sweet dreams =X

group photo frm left. aaron,chit hao,peng sheng, me, yiu long

so fortunate to take pic with ps the birthday boi n lionel.

peng sheng the birthday boi =) Happy 20th birthday!

We went to amk hub to watch a horror movies. aaron n lionel not inside the photo. =X

From left to right. chit hao, yiu long, peng sheng the birthday boi and me =)

Thanks all those who showered care n concern for me for the past few days especially ytd nite =) Though most of u still dunn0 my illness but u all show genuine care for me i'm so touched by tat =)) I promise u all i'll take gd care of myself n n0t make u all worry for me especially 1 important person n frens ard me like sh, sl, lr, law, and many more etc. I'll jiayou de sl thanks for ur encouragement yeah i'll be alrite dun worry ya n must score well for ur 'o' lvl yeah.. =) o ya lr i'll rmb our conversation in msn de thanks for the advice oso =)) i'll end here will update soon!

I'm dying ='(

If 1 day i'm going to leave this world i hope to leave peacefully. I dun wan all my frens especially the 1 i care the most shed any tears for me tat is the least thing i wan. Well i might or might not recover so i hav to be mentally prepared. How i wished i could spend the remaining time with the 1 i like , my frens n every1 who are close to me, such tat i wont die with regrets. Go away my illness i hate u!!! Leave me alone!!!!

I jus wan to delicate tis song to sum 1 whom i cherish alot.. song title is 对不起 by 王子. Coz i cant seem to express myself.. o well.. Hope tat person will appreciate n understand the significance of the song.. hahas Its a nice n meaningful song n touching song yeah (almost drop tears when i listen to it ='( )
Post till here. (i noe its a short entry but....)

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多久了没有你的消息
上一封简讯是星期几
又错过了与你的约定
对不起真的不是故意
有时候没办法陪着你
你总是对我说没关系
放不下我对你的任性
对不起不该让你伤心
有时候 你会让让我尽管我大男人发作
有时候 你会装作不懂默默地 留一些空间给我
这些事情 其实 我一直都藏在心里
请你原谅我不懂逗你开心
请你原谅我不懂听你的心
回想这过去 我学着让你更安心
别赌气别任性别放弃 说声对不起

请你原谅我不懂逗你开心
请你原谅我不懂听你的心
回想这过去 我学着让你更安心
别赌气别任性别放弃
请你相信我我会更加珍惜
请你相信我我会呵护着你
小小的爱情 却是我最大的幸运
疼爱的 想念的都是你请你相信
一个这样的我
请原谅我 对不起 对不起 ='(

Thanks for letting me realise tat u care for me. Thanks for console-ing me when im em0. Thanks for chatting with me when im down. Jus wan u to n0e tat n0 matter wat happen, be it rain or shine i will accompany u n stay by ur side. Friends 4 ever =) WOW rare scene "elipse" though i nvr really witnessed it =X


Perhaps its all my fault n although u 4giv me but im like very guilty... Jus wan to apologise if i ever make u sad i really dun wish to sour our relationship de hope u will understand me ='( okay enough of those em0 stuffs lets smile tgt HAHAHA =)

From n0w onwards, i will try n0t to be too emo le.. It hurts me when i knew too much abt u.. I failed as a fren. I jus hope u will find ur happiness n dun dwell on ur past. May u be a more stronger person den b4. I will learn to 4get u though i m reluctant to do so. But having like u once was perhaps a blessing jus tat maybe we are from 2 different world. But hopefully u will still treat me as ur fren though u seem to hide everythings from me. Let me say it final time tat i didnt regret it for liking u. Guess i hav to let go n0w. Last emo-ing le.



Mon. went bugis with lawrence n crapped alot throughout. whenever we meet we will share alot =) Thanks yi xian for console-ing me =) I really appreciate it. thnks for the call though we chatted for 30 mins only but at least u let me realised tat u did care for me tat was the main purpose. =) o yeah n thanks for ur advise.

Too much incident hav happened recently. Very em0 n0w... ='(

Fri. As usual went to sch for fyp. Tat evening went out with Lawrence for dinner. We went jp to walk walk but since we prefered chatting , we walked aimlessly =X we chatted alot n seem to get along well =)

Sat. Lazy to go out did my final preparation for next day event. took afternoon nap for few hrs b4 i went to th for qkb.. Jus wan to let u n0e tat i really care for u if u really wan me to disappear within ur sight i will jus listen to u though i will be reluctant to do so... Em0 now....

Sun. The event went smoothly.. It commenced at 8 n ended at 6.. Though it was a long day but it was an opportunity for us to learn n improve. The theme is 五教一家 This event's agenda is to let us understand the difference between religion n heavenly tao. Dun feel like elaborating everything... Mon. after sch going bugis with Lawrence =) I will update till here.. All those pic took on sun are with wanqi after i hav received those photo will upload in fb =)

Inspiration n support

Trust in the lord with all ur heart n lean not on ur own understanding, in all ur ways acknowledge him n he will make ur paths straight....

Tues: Hyh was so successful n i can only say every1 lykl =)

Wed: Morning on MRT met Joaquim but almost cant recognise her... =X chatted with her till i reached clementi b4 taking bus to sch.... Did my circuit board n was rdy to to print the pcb... =) After tat was lunch... Left sch at 12.45 n reached orchard Mrt at 1.20.. well i was supposed to meet SH at 2.... Maybelyn also went out with us. We went shopping at orchard n chatted throughout.. I tried to join in their coversation but sumtime i noe im too random =X Maybelyn kept saying i am too quiet but i did join in their conversation lor =) At abt 5 plus we went to have our dinner. After tat, we took sum photos while SH n maybelyn bought some food at taka food fair. photo are still with maybelyn so i will post it next time =X
At 6, it was home sweet home =) Hopefully can meet n ask them out next time =X Really enjoyed myself n wat i can say is tat time really flies when ur having fun... =)

Present given to me by SH =) Its a mini fan she bought frm wuhan.

What i had been doing n wat's i will be going to do for the next few days =) I will post them now..





Sat~ Had a group meeting during the morning.. Afternoon went to library till ard 5 plus to modify my ppt slides.. Went home to bathe eat dinner n write my biao wen b4 going to er tong du jing ban to hav a celebration coz the du jing zhuang yuan sai jus successfully ended... Tat ends my day =)





Sun~ Went to du jing jia ting ri.. had another meeting after tat n reached home at 3 plus... after tat edit my stuff again... actually at nite still got hyh rehearsal de but wan qi told zhi kai to release me so as to help our de shu to ly coz our de shu qian dao hav insufficient ppl ... tat nite talked to maybelyn awhile b4 i went to sleep =)





Mon~ School-ing ='( and at nite got mfb =)





Tues~ School-ing (Arghhhhh!!) at nite got hyh and will be able to see alot of ppl =)





Wed~ Going to meet SH wahaha x)





Thurs~ Not very sure tbc perhaps ask maybelyn out? =.=





Since 10-7-09 i had adopted a rabbit n i love it very much =) i will post sum pic of our memories here n facebook so take note!!! X)

Dun tell me u still dun understand me? Jus wan u to be happy!! Cheer up !!! Let me be ur guardian angel n protect/love u in discreet =)

Is it because im not gentleman enough? Is it because im not generous enough? Is it because im still very immature? Or is it because im younger den euu?? Pls end my agony ='(


I will still wait for u to give me a chance =)

Dunno y im having mixed feelings n0w......

Thanks LM grace for being able to attend C camp from last fri to mon (13-15th june).. Learnt alot from this camp and i am touched by those camp committee's efforts.. The theme 4 the camp is 人人笃行持 , 家家弥勒愿.. My group is 持愿组.. From the station 突破自我 , 展翅高飞 we went through 3 sub stations on 毅力 , 远见 , 选择.. From 毅力 station i learnt that no matter how much obstacles we faced, we have to be determine enough to overcome them. Quoted by dunno who 4gt le =P " Strength does not come from physical capacity, it comes from an indeniable will".... From 选择 station we played board game on china map( we can choose our own route to other province so hav to plan route wisely). I learnt that every1 has a chance to choose/make a decision. We have to make wise decision in order to change our life. 所谓"境不转,心要转" so we have to make wise choice.. As for 远见 station i learnt that every1 will hav their own capabilities and responsibilities so we have to 看得远 and ensure that every1' role is equally important. 不同status , 不同重任
We also have program like 圆满人生 whereby they teach us how to yuan man our ren sheng and invited tz to share his experience with us. "Each an every1 of us is born with a sacred contract, an agreement to learn certain lessons and develop wisdom in this lifetime so as to realise your mission and fulfill your spiritual obligation to LM"
We also have tz to tell us a lecture on 弥勒的宏愿. He mentioned something on 弟子之三种因缘
1)与弥勒佛结缘 2)请旨发愿降世 3)领命应运入世
i will post part 2 next time =z

Applause for HYH =P

All our efforts were paid off through ytd performance. Well, all the audience had seen our performance and the happiness , the joy , n everything cant be describe by words.. Frankly speaking all those who were involved in the skit which include log, mr , actor, narrator n not forgetting director really put in lots of effort to make this a really successful 1. Gan xie lmcb!
BRAVO for all who were involved in this hyh ly. (BYZ, CO, lang song, shen shi n xiang sheng) =P



Currently i got alot of mixed emotion... Who shld i approach n who can help me? LMCB, hope everything will be smooth for me be it my love life/health/school life n etc BLESS ME PLS XXLMCB

Yesh overcome my fear n phobia of needle =P

Ytd there was a blood donation event at TG. Many ppl were there donating n sum were anticipating this event. I reached TG at 10 plus n began to register. There are lots of procedure to follow but the whole event was very organised n systematic. Our De shu g0t l0ts of ppl donating including tzong hong, yi xian, xu xun, me, liru, wan ting, wan qi, mei zhu and few tz..
Though we waited for 2 hrs b4 our turn, but shen tz was there to entertain me n crack lame jokes to calm me down =X
I oso g0t tis sticker which states that "Be kind to me coz this is my 1st blood donation" i still keep it okay... After that we went basement for lunch b4 our meeting. At 3, tzong hong n i went for hyh rehearsal.
Basically the rehearsal went quite smoothly n thanks to all actor's effort! Oso thanks Shi ling for narrating over n over again n heard tat she wasnt feeling too well must take care wor else on tat actual day no1 will replace u n help us narrate.
After the rehearsal, tzong hong n i went hou gang mall pasta mania makan =P so expensive =X
after tat HOME SWEET HOME ....

你那么爱他
直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个美好风景
只是他早已离去
直到你相逢
他早已经不在对你留恋
最后的你开始了一段挣扎
哦～～～
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔


甜蜜约定
轻轻关上我的眼睛
整个心里都是你
希望真爱能被你感应
你是月亮我是星星
陪你一起数心情
见证我俩爱情的降临
在我心里　最爱的人就是你
装上翅膀我要飞向你
爱的印记　如此坚定
这是我们的甜蜜约定
轻轻呼吸你的呼吸
心里满满都是你
你是阳光水还有空气
茫茫人海确定是你
幸福闪烁的眼睛
月亮代表我的一颗心
Baby U will know our love so sweet


恋人未满
为什么只和你能聊一整夜
为什么才道别就又想见面
在朋友里面 就数你最特别
总让我觉得很亲很贴
为什么你在意谁陪我逛街
为什么你担心谁对我放电
你说你对我 比别人多一些
却又不说是多哪一些
友达以上 恋人未满
甜蜜心烦 愉悦混乱
我们以后 会变怎样
我迫不及待想知道答案
再靠近一点点 就让你牵手
再勇敢一点点 我就跟你走
你还等什么 时间已经不多
再下去 只好只做朋友
再向前一点点 我就会点头
再冲动一点点 我就不闪躲
不过三个字 别犹豫这么久
只要你说出口 你就能拥有我
为什么你寂寞只想要我陪
为什么我难过只肯让你安慰
我们心里面 明明都有感觉
为什么不敢面对
我不相信 都动了感情却到不了爱情
那么贴心却进不了心底
你能不能快一点决定对我说我爱你

Last sat and sun were 双亲节. We performed and delicated 3 songs to all the parents who were there celebrating this event with us. 1) 母亲你真伟大 2) 与mu同在 3) 感恩的心
Just want to take this opportunity to gan xie lmcb thanks lm for making this event a sucessful 1.
We performed 8 场 on both days but every1 are 法喜充满 and 了愿 until very happy =P
On Sun the person i admire was there enjoying the meal with her parents and relatives so happy to see her Haha! Anw these 2 days we also entertain ourselves while waiting for our performance. For these 2 days i feel that time is well spent and i really enjoyed myself with all the byz members! Thanks all for the gd rapport between all of us n just want to compliment all for our good performances and 大家了愿快乐 and im looking 4ward to next ly tgt with them =P
Lastly, i hope that the girl i admire will join byz so that i can know her better =X

thanks campaign =P

Few daes ago i jus visited liru's blog and saw her this campaign which is expressing our thanks/gratitude to somebody/anybody whom we think tat they deserve it. 1stly, this teaches me tat we mus gan en most of the time regarding gd/bad time.. I jus wanna thanks LM (god) for giving me a gd rapport between us. Also wanna thanks my parents , my siblings , my frens (fotang/non fotang) and thanks for last sat byz for the successful rehearsal.. thanks wendy for coming last sat (byz) , thanks zhao yi , liru , mei zhu for camp planning. thanks chong yee for being able to ly for the zhuang yuan mao. thanks tzong hong for being there with me at byz =P n thanks all other de shu ban yuan/jian qing for the guidance ^0^

Jus wanna thanks all...